WHEN IS "SORRY" SIMPLY NOT ENOUGH??
When is asking for forgiveness asking for too much? when do we realise we overstepped the boundary line and crossed over to way too much? What does one do when one becomes trapped and stuck knee deep in ones own self-inflicted drama? What do we do when the one secret that we swore we would take to the grave is the one thing slowly but surely leading us there?
Do we tell another lie and hope to free ourselves even if its for a little while? But the burden becomes a physical pain and an obstacle blocking spiritual growth and maturity. The guilt and shame are a constant reminder of your stupidity.
The general argument is that we tell the truth, and it will all be over. But will it, really? Will playing "good girl" solve anything at all? The truth is not only going to hurt, but it will surely destroy.
When one acknowledges ones mistake and pledges to never go back there again, is it not enough? Why is there still a deficiency? What exactly should be done?
A lie told by an unfit teenager, remained hidden for years. Now as a young adult, it still haunts her. Guilt and shame drown her as she starts doubting her own credibility and sanity. She has built friendships, relationships and partnerships (all true and honest) with people who believed this lie was gospel truth. Should she tell the truth, chances are she loses everything but lives freely. But then again, what is a clear conscience worth if one is alone?
She needs to stop running from herself, but where would she begin should she decide to settle down? Does she confess the truth and ask for forgiveness? She was a mere teenager and surely no one can hold her responsible for the crazy stories she told? If only it were that simple. It is not so, and she is responsible!
Sometimes, I'm sorry I lied isn't enough. And even if it kills her, this secret she will take to her grave!
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